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I miss him
by: Jibbs123 (Send Feedback)
Series: - No Series - #1
Chapters: 001 Word Count: 446
Character(s): Jethro Gibbs, Jenny Shepard, Ensemble
Episode(s): 3-24 Hiatus (2)
Summary: OVER RATED - done for safety.
Post Hiatus - kinda Gibbs in Mehico, I'm not sure really!
Jenny POV about Gibbs not being @ NCIS.
HOW I THINK SHE FEELS ! ! !
Author Notes: Jennys POV about after Gibbs has left NCIS
If you don't agree with Jibbs, well this is VEREH much Jibbs. PLZ READ if you adore Jibbs.
Very Short. One shot, but, if you like it, I may attempt one for Tiva or McAbby, your choice!
I Miss Him
I miss him.
Sometimes I miss him so much that itís a struggle to get up in the morning.
Sometimes I think that I smell bourbon. I turn round, but the room is bare. I need him back. Right now. He has to be here. He has to be here with a polystyrene coffee cup in his hand.
Sometimes I go and sit in his basement. I smell the sawdust. It reminds me of him. I see his half finished boat. It reminds me of how much I hurt him after Paris. At this point I usually begin to cry. Roughly, I try to pull myself together, but I canít. I miss him too much.
Sometimes, I walk out of my office and look over the bullpen. As usual, I look at his desk first. I see DiNozzo sat there. For a moment itís him I see, not DiNozzo. He looks up at me and smiles then he looks back at his computer and again itís DiNozzo I see.
The first thing I ask Cynthia every morning is if there is any news of him. The answer is always the same. No. Everytime she says that, a little piece of me dies. I know that is going to be the answer, but it still hurts.
It has taken me far too long to come to terms with my feelings for him. But now I realise that I love him. That has always been my problem. I donít recognise and accept my feelings for people until they are gone.
Sometimes I just want him to walk through my office door and tell me that he is sorry he left, that he missed me, that I was the reason he came back. Even though he hasnít come back and I doubt he ever will. The first thing I would say if he walks through the door right now would be:
ďLeroy Jethro Gibbs, I love you.Ē
But, knowing me it would probably end up as
ďWhere the hell have you been?! You drove us all insane with worry!Ē
Then we would have a big fight and he would leave again, this time for good.
I canít let that happen. So as usual I will act as though I really donít care. Even though I very much do. So I will act nonchalant. As always.
Even though I love him, he drives me crazy.
Sometimes, I just want him to stop talking in riddles and speak plain English. But most of the time I donít really mind.
But, the one thing I know for sure, is that
I love him.
MTAC - NCIS Fic