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My Past, My Future, My Present
by: Ashleigh Anpilova (Send Feedback)
Series: - No Series - #1
Chapters: 001 Word Count: 367
Character(s): Jethro Gibbs, Ducky Mallard
Category(ies): Character Study, Established Relationship, Friendship, General
Summary: Ducky is Jethro's past, future and present.
I don't love you because I need you; I need you because I love you.
Thereís not much about the past, my past, which Iím proud of.
Iíve done things I regret. Things that hurt people. Things that werenít maybe wrong, but werenít right. Things I wish I could undo.
But there is something, someone, that makes it all worthwhile. That makes up for all the bad. For all the pain. All the hatred.
The man I love.
The man Iíve loved since the minute I met him.
The man whoís always stood by me, no matter what.
The man who loves me.
The man who is my past.
I think the worst thing about life would be having to go through it without you.
At one point I didnít think Iíd have a future.
Didnít see the point in having one.
What could it bring? Nothing but pain, misery, destruction, hatred, badness. Most of which Iíd caused.
I doubt I wouldíve had one had it not been for one person.
If it hadnít been for Ducky.
He took the bad and made it good.
He took the hatred and replaced it with love.
He took the pain and gave me pleasure.
He took the destruction and rebuilt.
He took the misery and offered me joy.
He gave me my future.
He is my future.
Right now, I can't remember yesterday, and I don't care about tomorrow. This moment is all that matters.
Having a past if one thing.
Having a future is another.
But without a present they are both pointless.
My present is Ducky.
He makes each day worth living.
He lets me see the world through different eyes. The eyes of someone who can, and does, care. The eyes of someone who can see the beauty, the pleasure, the joy, the love, the peace.
He makes me know that Iím loved, wanted, needed. That Iím not quite the bastard I think I am.
He makes me.
He makes me whole.
He is my present.
And he will always be so.
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