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Workin' For The Weekend (Follows Overcoming)

by: BuffyAngel68 (Send Feedback)

Series: - No Series - #1
Chapters: 015 Word Count: 14418
Rating: ADULT
Character(s): Jethro Gibbs, Tony DiNozzo, Timothy McGee, Other Male Character
Category(ies): Angst/Drama, Drabble, Humor, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Pairing(s): Gibbs/DiNozzo
Summary: The week leading up to Cody's visit is a bit of a roller-coaster for Jethro and Tony, but once the other man arrives, it's all uphill...

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10

Workin For… 10/?

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15 MINUTES LATER:

“That’s it. Breathe in… hold it… out to the same three count. Nice. You like to swim, Anthony?”

“Sure. I love it, especially in the ocean.”

“Not out here on the Atlantic coast, I’m assuming.”

“I’ve been in a few times, but, yeah, I really prefer warmer waters.”

“Your favorite?”

“Australia, actually.”

“Okay. I want you to picture yourself floating, just a few feet from the beach. You’re safe… close enough to shore to get back easily. Got the image?”

“I do, sir.”

“Relaxed?”

“Yeah. Getting there, anyway. This visual really helps.”

“Good. Recite your first four rules.”

“True submissives are not weak, because it takes strength and courage to put everything you are at somebody else’s feet and believe they’ll respect and cherish the gift. No lying, especially if I’m aware from the start that it *is* one. No breaking prior agreements. No betrayal in any way, shape or form, including keeping it to myself if someone else tries to get me to cheat or flirt.”

“Nice job. “

“Do you want my affirmations?”

“Only the last one. The rest belong exclusively to Jethro… just like you.”

Tony grinned.

“Don’t I know it.”

“Yeah, yeah.” Cody chuckled. “The last affirmation?”

“I am enough.”

“You believe that yet?”

“I’m working on it. You were right there yesterday…”

“Mmm. ‘A hateful man who raised you to believe you’re worthless.’ I remember. That’s not where all the trust problems come from, though.”

“No. Not completely. Ninety percent.”

“And the other ten?”

Tony sighed and dropped his chin a little.

“It took a long time for me to risk opening up to someone… telling them a little of what I went through as a kid. They couldn’t handle it.”

“I’m sorry that happened.”

“Me too. I mean… I was already gun-shy. Seeing her walk out the door just made me… paranoid. After that one-might stands were pretty much it for me. I didn’t dare take the chance on anything deeper.”

“Until now.”

“Yeah, until now. And I don’t even know why, really.”

“Think about it a minute. Think about the first time you knew it’d be different with Jethro.”

Tony actually hesitated several minutes, his expression shifting frequently, before he finally spoke up.
“He, uh… he was having a really hard time with something that happened at work.”

“The Ari thing. He wrote me about that. Nasty situation.”

Tony looked up, relief suffusing his face and loosening his tongue. If Cody knew that much he could be much more open.

“A. J. called Jethro… you know A.J., right?”

“Very well, and I know about the House, too. He must’ve thought Jethro needed a purge session.”

“Yeah, exactly. Well, a couple weeks later, we were at work and he said… he said we were doing it again. I was so confused and twisted up over the first time, I just told him I had other plans. He got up, walked over to my desk and wrapped his hand around my upper arm. Not hard, it didn’t hurt, you know… it just felt so weird. Then he ordered me to close my eyes. I tried not to, but I got dizzy and… and suddenly I just couldn’t help doing what he wanted. Once I said I’d meet him at his place that night, he touched the back of my neck and my head was clear again. It scared the hell out of me, but I had to find out why… what it meant that he could do that.”

“Now you understand.”

“Mostly. Only someone meant to be a sub would’ve reacted like that. And what I felt was a little taste of falling.”

“Nail on the head. I’m sure Jethro wishes he hadn’t had to do it that way. It only contributed to your being more afraid when you tried the real thing.”

“I don’t know. It makes sense… I guess.”

“Can you put the fear and confusion of that first experience aside, Anthony? Can you let that go?”

“I’m not sure. Now that I’m aware… maybe.”

“Let’s try, okay? You’re floating in the warm water… sun heating you all the way to the core of your body… relaxed and comfortable… happy and at peace.” Cody encouraged quietly as he reached out and grasped Tony’s wrist. “Gradually, you start to turn… to swing in a slow clockwise circle. As you finish one rotation, you feel yourself going a little deeper into head space… more peaceful, more calm. Perfect. Another rotation… even deeper… even farther down…”

Abruptly, Tony began to violently shiver, opened his eyes and pulled away from Cody, twisting his body sideways. “Anthony?”

“I can’t. I was there, it was working… then it wasn’t. I have no idea why. I’m really just… *so* sorry….”

“Hey, you didn’t do anything wrong. This process is harder for some folks than it is for others.”

“It’s way beyond hard, sir. I’m completely panicking. Jethro… he said I’ll be free of my past, that he’ll help me trust again… but the more I fail at this, the less I believe it’s possible.”

“You didn’t fail, Anthony. When it comes to this, there is no failure. Only levels of success. So you’re stuck on the first level, buddy. There’s nothin’ wrong with that. Once you find an’ break down all the obstacles that’re standin’ in your way, then you’ll move on. It just may take a while to do that. Can I hold you for a bit? Would that help the shakes back off?”

“I’d like that.” Tony whispered, shifting over and into Cody’s open arms.

TBC……

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