Series: - No Series - #1
Chapters: 001 Word Count: 337
Character(s): Jethro Gibbs, Caitlyn (Kate) Todd
Episode(s): 2-23 Twilight
Summary: Post Twilight..I think that covers it. This comes with a Kleenex warning.
Author Notes: Not mine...cause if I did there would be no Twilight.
Go grab your tissues.
It wasnít supposed to be this way. If anything it should have been me. I sit here and stare at your desk and wonder why you arenít here. Logically I know you are here. Youíre down on one of Duckyís tables, but you are supposed to be sitting at your desk or I guess at this hour at home in your bed, sleeping.
He said it was me he was after. I should have known better. He was always after you, even when he wasnít. I should have protected you better. I should have fought the director when he put you on as my protection detail. Itís one thing to protect the President and know that you could be killed in the line of duty, but to protect me. I should have known he was after you.
I canít help but just stare at the empty desk next to mine. You should be there. Fighting with Tony. Defending McGee. Laughing with Abby when youíre supposed to be doing paper work. Teasing Ducky about his stories. You should be here.
Should be here with me.
I know I should be thinking of finding that bastard that did this to you, but all I can do is stare at that desk that should have a vibrant woman sitting behind it.
I should have done better. Protected you better. Taught you better. Loved you better.
What am I going to do without you?
How will the team be now that youíre not here?
Who will fight with Tony?
Who will Tony next try to black mail with a wet t-shirt contest photo?
Who will defend McGee against Tony?
Who will listen to Duckyís stories without interruption?
Who will Abby go to the spa with?
Who will I stare at, at points throughout the day?
What will happen to our team, our family without you?
Who will I love, now that you arenít here?
What will I do without you?